My Tedious Thoughts

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Thu, 14 Feb 2013 17:34:41 -0500

brockdavis:

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cinyma: Quentin Tarantino and Harvey Keitel on the set...

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 06:29:00 -0500

cinyma:

Quentin Tarantino and Harvey Keitel on the set of Reservoir Dogs (1992)

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Sat, 10 Nov 2012 12:48:43 -0500

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Sun, 14 Oct 2012 12:38:02 -0400

liveinbellwoods: here is just a frame of Ben Caplan during his...

Sun, 14 Oct 2012 11:51:39 -0400

liveinbellwoods:

here is just a frame of Ben Caplan during his Live in Bellwoods session

Utterly brilliant <3

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Sat, 29 Sep 2012 05:51:49 -0400

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Fri, 28 Sep 2012 07:03:48 -0400

hippie-trippie-shit: so sexy

Fri, 28 Sep 2012 06:44:42 -0400

hippie-trippie-shit:

so sexy

laughingsquid: Ground Worm Tequila Salt

Tue, 25 Sep 2012 19:59:34 -0400

laughingsquid:

Ground Worm Tequila Salt

Yeah .. errrrr ... well No, Well? yeahhh ... NOPE :/

Mon, 24 Sep 2012 15:34:58 -0400

As I have mentioned before I see tumblr as a ill-organised diary, I don’t date my exerts nor do I really mention any time as to when they could be referenced to, I purely use it as a vent for any anguish or slight depression I might have … unfortunately, hence this post, this is a sighting in to another addition to my ever disappointing endeavor to vanquish loss and love.

I Truly did think I may (no, barely even may but ever the optimist) of found a new pursuit in to curing myself, however I know now the once quite raging flames of anticipation, optimism, happiness and satisfaction are just smoldering embers of the blast furnace in my mind, I expected and predicted this, I just thought maybe for once, just maybe I could of caught a break, it seems my punishment must be more severe (<3 Tom Hardy) so, as I type this, refreshing my self of the realisation I’ve failed, my facade weakens and I do feel genuinely sad, which I’d managed to go for so long without, I know everyday can’t be perfect, OBVS i get sad, but when I wanted so much from such a weak and tenuous desire it’s somehow really hit home, even though we had that fucking GREAT night, which I thought went perfectly (ever the optimist) evidently not, maybe my chance didn’t match to the 8’s chance (ahaha) (previous post reference, not even funny) so yeah, I won’t bury the feelings, or lose them, I’ll remain open minded like I always do, but for now, definitely looking at new potential …. besides two nights after I was actually fucking a girl in the Ladies (classy) off my face on Orange Rockstars? whatever the fuck they are and that was intense, we both regretted it we are mates and it was purely the pills but still, I can’t be that hung up about her can I? maybe I’m just feeling ronery, I’ll stop being SUCH A BUTT FUCKING QUITTER and maybe grow back my old pair, only issue is I have no money either to go out with :/ which is a bastard, so even If i wanted to scour the night looking for a quick fix I can’t, think I might be meeting an old fuck buddy on friday though, she lives in Newcastle like so she isn’t far, but she wasn’t even that nice, I just did it because she had bright blue hair (it’s purple now … Clem i nicknamed her) (eternal sunshine of the spotless mind - Jim Carrey & Kate Winslet —-> actually quite good) but I might just go back home, see susan and the gang :) we’ll see … I’ll keep my head up, it’s hard enough

Ooooooh I did join the gym today though, solid back and bi’s session, back is actually fucking wrecking so i’ll probs walk with a hunch until Wednesday, when it’s chest and tri’s and then i’ll walk like, well I won’t ahahaha i’ll be like a snake but with bones and no sense of direction, endlessly wallowing about hopelessly with no cause or direction, just waiting for someone to guide me or take care of me :) I think thats what I’m gutted about the most, the fact I’ve waited so long now for an actual companion … and when it was in within reasonable reach … it shits in my hands and convinces me to clap abidingly like a downs-syndrome seal (bit far) (I’m sorry) (mum) but yeah fuck it, no doubt i’ll go out wednesday … get royally fucked up forget all about tho whole thing, maybe talk to the girl who is in the back of my mind now at 4 in the morning and make a complete tit of my self but hopefully rub off some ever depleting charm.

I don’t know if I care anymore, I even considered asking my dad if I could work full time for him and sack uni off … I didn’t, it would crush him, i know he’s actually proud that I’m here … by and large I’m only really here for him :) anyway I watched Godfather 1 last night so it’s Godfather 2 tonight :)

Joe’s here now, must go
Much Love - Willy xx

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Fri, 21 Sep 2012 22:46:25 -0400

laughingsquid: I Miss Drugs, A Web Series That Paints a Sadly...

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 12:10:33 -0400

laughingsquid:

I Miss Drugs, A Web Series That Paints a Sadly Accurate Portrait of Aging Hipsters

Butterflies

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 07:32:00 -0400

I haven’t done like a little episode or segment of my life in this blog for ages, I think I used to use it as a vent, I wanted to do one about Leeds Fest, but I was so Permanently FUCKED on MDMAmaing that I can only remember my emotions, which were perfect, fell in love and discovered some more man hood, I think it was the drugs they made me more stern … Never Say Sorry …. as my brother sought in me aha Foo’s were incredible as were Kasabian OBVS but like Gaslight Anthem surpirise of the weekend and for like actual atmos, like massive rave power has to be Modestep, FUCKING INSANE but anyway this post isn’t about leeds but I thought I owed it to myself to do this :) as I’m a massive bender and my mind isn’t as sharp as it used to be, it just thinks about girls and the gym and getting fucked up ohh and music …. uni is quite far down on my agenda …. SHIT :/ ahahaha

but yeah, butterflies, well i did actually fall in love, like way way way way way way way, I don’t even know how far out of my league, the unfortunate reality was that it truly was beauty and the beast (But a handsome beast at that) (Anchorman) no but still like she just had this effortless adorable innocent charm which just fucking captivated me, I couldn’t really decipher what quality about her it was that I actually fell for, other than she looked like a model ahahaha but I’ve never been vein, i suppose that she looked great temmed with her breezy attitude and just innocence drew me in like a jew to a closing down jeweler (SHITE ANALOGY) errrrm like a geordie to a free spray tan ??? (better, not great) like a pedo at Build-a-bear (yeah, stick with that) but anyway … The Girl … I don’t actually want to type her name, it maintains the romanticism of this little piece … but it was unusual and irish (but she wasn’t, she is a smoggy?) but it was as perfect as her, she dressed indie, but not way to indie, similar to me, I’m really a chav that wants to be indie, but still love music, no chav was to far, I’m a normal lad thats want to be indie, or a rocker but thats not cool unless your dead skinny with great hair :/ and i’m most certainly not, I’m built like a fucking tank ahahaha but yeah, the girl, well I’m not sure, the old phras … if something is to good to be true, then it probably is … but my sister, who I adore and miss … she always told me, she made me swear to her to never let my self think anyone was ever better than yourself, we are all equal :) but you can’t help it, I certainly can’t :/ I have seen her since leeds, we shared a night at my flat at uni, It was perfect again (well for me, she seemed pretty pleased to though) but yeah, the reason for the butterflies title is self explanatory, I get them when i’m with her, I haven’t had that since my ex who practically destroyed every aspect of my libido and confidence around women, it was the gym that cured me of that :) and my new sensational ability to allow my self to be a dick once more, not offensively or maliciously but I will use others issues for persoanl gain ahahaha not that I’m a snake, I just take the piss (in the most least malicious way) and be silly, all girls deep down like silly, silly is playful, playful means fun, fun means not boring vis-a-vis an attractive mate :) no staleness and a lesser chance of adultery (it’s science … It’s a part of my life)

nevertheless, I’m not to get my hopes up, she even told me she is like playing 3 lads at the moment (including me) OBVS but still if you don’t get your hopes up, you can’t be disappointed (tbf thats bull, I’ve already fallen, not all the way at all, but enough) ever the optimist :)

Much Love … Will xx